Brian De Loach, 37

THIS WAS SO HURTFUL TO HEAR BOUT MY FRIEND ALL THE WAY IN HOUSTON...I AM GONNA ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU LORD KNOWS I AM

A person so giving and filled with joy did not deserve to die such a violent death. He was the catalyst of good times. When Brian (RIP) was there, good times were sure to follow.... I still expect him to show up smiling, wearing a fresh cap, polo shirt and jeans but I'm sadden to know it wont happen. Cheers to you friend!!! You will be missed by many.

Really a good guy that truly did not deserve such a tragic death! Seems to be that it always happens to the good ones as so many bad ones still walk the streets! You will be missed very much Bri......

Sid

i remember when brian would watch the cooking channel all day than go to the store get all the stuff an make what he saw on tv but it look way better an taste so good than he made sprinkle cup cakes. an how he use to love to tex me after the lakers would lose always talkn ish about kobe sucks this an thats naw what SUCKS IS THAT UR GONE AN ILL NEVER GET THOSE TEX MESSAGES AGAIN DAMN B I MISS U CUZZ

My Brother. A person who never met a stranger and was loved by all. You are dearly missed. I am so so heart broken, saddened and in shock by the cowardly act of one. I love you!!!

Brian he was everything to me like my big brother whenever i needed n e thing I could always count on him to b there. i remember he would watch niptuck 3 hours earlier and call r text me soiling the show for me and i would go hard on him and he would just laugh.. Man i would love to here his laugh right now... i was there by his side the last minutes of his life.. talking to him and praying with him...it was so painful and traumatizing for me to see him like that..and if i wasnt there and somebody told me what happen i would have never believed it...like i didnt believe my eyes that night..I know he is in a better place and watching over us... man I love you B!

OMG, BRIAN I'M SURE GONNA MISS ALL THE WONDERFUL KISSES YOU WOULD GIVE ME, YOU WILL FOREVER REMAIN IN MY HEART........LOVE YOUR B.M. 4EVER

To one of the most generous human beings, I've ever met in my life. You are my brother and how my heart longs in your absence. My glass is now half empty.

Man O Man, where do I start? I wish this was an April fool's joke or a punked episode or even a bad dream. But since it's not, this is Bad all Bad. He definately did not deserve to die on the dirty ground of a dirty ass club floor. I only wish that the police handle their business and get their investigation started, so we as a community need to get involved cause it damn sure could of been you or me. Don't sweep this case under the rug and please don't let it go unsolved. He was one of the good one's. Baseball cap, Polo shirt, wheat color Tim boots, phone in hand, ready to go eat or cook a lil sumethin, sumethin... "Cream on the inside, Clean on the outside" our song.... U Will B Truly Missed, Homie & Friend. Thanks 4 the memories. I will miss spending the night at your house when I come out to L.A. u always opened your door to me. Ur smile was priceless!!! Cheers to U/cocktail please! I miss u "B" (Mia keep yo head up)

ALWAYS HAD A SMILE ON HIS FACE AND A KIND WORD TO BE SAID. RIP MAN

Am gonna miss you bro. You did not deserve to die like that.
I'll always remember what you did for me and i'll never forget that thanx my friend. You'll be miss

BRIAN YOU WILL BE MISSED YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART RIP MY FRIEND !!!

He was my life of Tha party... My husband....my lover....my bestfriend..my BABE....b cap la coste shirt true religon jeans air forces r tims...I remember when he use to sing to me tellin me he was gonna b called b.Vandross.... U didnt derserve what took place and that low life that did this to u really has truly turned my world upside down GOD bless there soul...no more wake up text r phone calls no sleep overs and party hoppin shoppin sprees cabazon outlet trips...joke sessions r Hours long phone conversations..6am dates breakfast dates. home cooked Dinners I'm truly broken..... I love You and I will die loving u..

a true angel walked amoung us and his name was...is Bryan. now this angel watches over us. a good man. a great friend. always ready to give u a hug with smile. alwaya watchen out for u. thx for all the hugs, smiles n hvn my back. u will truly be missed by sooo many. wear'n my polo shirt for u today....LUV U BRYAN!!!

Damn so sad to hear u gone lik that my buddy. You will be truly missed. Only God knows whats best. R I P BRYAN

Brian would always give me my Beyonce updates. He knows I love Beyonce! And when I went to Houston...Brian called everyday from LA to navigate me around his town! My last memory was when he text me on April 1st 2010 with a link that said "NAKED JAYZ AND BEYONCE PICTURES LEAKED" and I hurried to click the link, only to open it and it say "APRIL FOOLS" Im sorry to say that I wish this was an April Fools joke and we all could have our B. Back. Im so angry at how someone could so senselessly take him from us. Ironically he past on the same night as my "Bday" and his number was saved in my phone as "Brian BDay" because he was going to take me to the Beyonce Bday concert that year..we never made it to the concert but I will forever remember you Brian. I love you. Rest in peace.

BRIAN U WILL 4EVER B A STARR N MY EYE'S
*****************R.I.P**********************DADDY********

LOVE YA,
BABY MOMMA

SECOND II NONE............LOVE U B

Where do I start?
I'm sitting here still waiting to receive a call or a text from you. You were my rock. We had our ups and our downs....be more ups then I can think of. I remember how we sat on the phone talking about what I would buy you once I made it to the top. A Porsche Cayenne and a condo lol.....You believed in me more then I believed in myself. You were always there to fight my battles and steer me in the right direction. I honestly dont know what I'm going to do without you. You had a heart of platinum and I loved you from the pits of my soul. My best friend and first love. Im so sorry that I wasn't there to be by your side. Now I have to tackle this city without you being a phone call away. You were my shoulder to cry on always. ..it enrages me to know that you had to go away in that filthy place surrounded by some of the scum of the earth...you never wanted me in there and I hated the fact that you went there...my life wont be the same...my thoughts wont be the same...the air i breathe has lighten....dreams i dream have darkened...everything around me makes me think of you....from sour patch candies to polo shirts and fitted hats...they remind me of my soldier and best friend ....keep a place warm for me...and cut that snoring out before i get there lol...I love you B DeLoach

and Ill always remeber you telling me that I was "The best you ever had"

Your one and only

it just doesnt seem fair B.....to be here and your not......I just dont believe it....I love you.....

It hurts to know that people are so cruel and cold hearted. I knew Brian through a mutual friend and when I heard the news at 3:30am in the morning I was just so confused and I kept thinking why do people hate others for just being. Why can't we just be. The man was going out to have a good time and he lost his life??????????? All for nothing. God Bless you and your family. I am truly sorry.

I'm so angry and disgusted by what has taken place.. All the Glory be to God! I am praying for justice baby and I believe it will happen. My your beautiful soul rest in eternal peace. You are loved!

I've known Brian for many years. We met while he lived in Houston. While I'm sad that he is no longer on this earth, it is great to read such wonderful comments about a great person. I too will always remember him as someone who watched the Food Channel all the time and then would spend the whole day perfecting the recipes he saw. Brian loved Sur La Table, Whole Foods, La Coste, Timbs, Tennis Shoes and Vodka.

Words cant really describe such a cool dude that i met many years ago. We've had our ups and downs but you always had a special place in my heart its just hard to believe that you are gone. Thank you for the times we shared, thank you for all the advice you gave, thanks for all the swag you sprinkled my way.. Love you always.......
Ro

ITS CRAZY TO ME THAT IM ACTUALLY RIGHTING THIS....BOSS...BRIAN...B!!ONE OF THE REALEST DUDES TO WALK THIS EARTH... DAMN IM AT A LOST FOR WORDS..YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE AND I KNOW IT..I CANT STOP READING UR TEXT MESSAGES AND LISTENING TO YOUR VOICE MAILS... I TRUELY THANK GOD THAT HE PLACED ME IN YOUR LIFE WHEN HE DID... I WAS ABLE TO SPEND YOUR LAST HOLIDAYS AND BIRTHDAY 2GETHER I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU AND YOU WILL TRUELY BE MISSED...MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY! I LOVE YOU DeLOACH aka MISTERRR lol muahh

I Love You Brian
TO MY DEARST (LOVE/BFF/BABY DADDY)
THE KIDS AND I WILL MISS YOU YOU WERE AND ARE THE BEST WE JUST DONT BELIEVE THAT YOU ARE GONE PEACE AND BLESSINGS BE UPON YOU

I remember meeting Brian for the first time in Atlanta over 20 years ago, I still have the image in my mind of him as a teenager ironing his clothes to perfection. Fast forward 15-years to the sweet hearted man that became my roommate and adored my dog as much as I do. He always made me feel safe by having a man in the house although his large stature was a contrast to his gentle spirit. Whenever he was out Brian always went above & beyond to ensure that everyone around him was having a good time. I still receive mail addressed to him periodically, ironically a letter for him was delivered to my house the day that he was murdered. It was surreal seeing his name in print while knowing that he's no longer with us. I can't help but to think that maybe this irrelevant piece of junk mail was actually sent from heaven, maybe Brian's way of saying goodbye. Cheers B! You will be missed by everyone whose lives you touched. xoxoxo

Love, Nea

Brian was a super kool guy.... we see each other we spoke...he had a drink...we drank... from the times we were at parties,clubs,or whatever situation he was always the same..funny..silly and cracken jokes...man im so saddend by the news I recieved about his death...May God Bless his soul and give his family the strenth to accept the fact he's gone to a way better place looking down on all those who loved him and those who shared a momment with him.BLESS YOU MAN (tear drops my eye)!!!!!

was he a OG banger? died in a area where demons dont sleep! ive been shot at in the area several dozen times and managed to escape death before seekign refuge in the (ie)

Well brian i truly am sadden about your passing, eventhough i havent talked to you in years. It really hurts my heart to know that someone had taken the life of someone so kind as you were, although you know we had our share of fallin outs and i still was pissed about you calling me T.O. "THROWED OFF" but I love you anyways. i hope your soul can find peace now and meet the ones that passed on before us in heaven. I love you allways and say hello to "PK" Paul King and "BB" Samuel Curry for me. I will see you soon on the other side. Your friend allways Marvin.

WOW!!! My friend. My brother. I will 4ever miss you, your laugh and smile. I was sitting the other day and wanted to talk to you so bad...I remembered all the many times you would call me; sometimes jus to say "WHA U DOIN?" and then 10 minutes later call and say "WHA U DOIN?" I will miss the many 3-way calls we had while watching the Food Network, Atlanta Housewives or God knows what. You were a sincerely generous person who definitely believed in having a good time and enjoyed life to the fullest. OMG... that week in Catalina ~ so much fun!! Your heart was good and you were a true friend to me. Having you in my life was surely a joy and I am honored to have been able to call you friend.

I will miss you much! May you rest in PEACE!! MY BROTHER!! MY FRIEND!!

Damn B...Im so outdone words cant express how i feel right now...As i look thru these photos in my phone i can just think about all the times we laughed together cheesin and other sh*t B...Why are these tears in my eyes...I guess im torn up so much inside...we lost a true soldier over some non sense...i love you so much yo...Rest in Peace...Brian

Love Adonis

My last memory of Brain was around the christmas holiday, An Brain was making gumbo.. and had scored the RUE... an turned an asked me if he could still uses the RUE? I told him No ! An that he would have to start over... He then looked at me, told me... SO BE IT..... hours later IT WAS DONE... UHURU

brian i haven't seen you in years. ( bro ) but i still remember the good times, that you share with the family. we will miss you dearly. MUCH LOVE FROM THE MARTIN, JONES, & DOWNIN FAMILY!!! REST IN PARADISE BRIAN.......

May.God.hv.mercy.for.the.coward.tht.commeted.this.crime.for.there.life.is.short.lived.God.will.deal.with.wht.has.to.be....B.ur.life.was.1.tht.is.a.pedistal.4.those.who.love.u.to.rememer.&.stive.to.be.better.to.here.wht.a.grt.soul.u.r.is.a.heartbreaker.2.hear.4.u.to.b.cutout.of.wht.was.promised.to.b.urs.I.appreciate.the.words.u.blessed.me.with.&.the.1.u.called.1.of.the.baddest.b!@#$%^.will.wear.my(her).stelletos.for.u.bt.I.will.walk.prouder.God.b.with.u.babes......RIP

I'm at a loss for words....I miss you sooo much already it's crazy....we have been bestfriends for 15 plus years and I can't imagine my life without you....we talked everyday all day long....we were brothers....I was closer to you than I am to my blood brother....I love you.... and I miss you ...Brother...Til we meet again!!

Brian, I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and day before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part. God has you in his arms. I have you in my heart. As, I sit here I'm thinking of the many times you, Netta, Renee and I laid around on my living room floor playing Monopoly...such a fun memory. B, we had are last hang out about a month ago...we hit three spots, as usual and you took great care of me and made sure ya girl was FULL!! Just didn't know it was the last. Well my sweet baby, the tears are finally rolling down my face....they are the first....I guess I'm finally realizing that this is not a dream. God bless your loving soul...Rest, baby...Eric, Anthony and now you...Heaven must be NICE!

this is touching,even tho i didn't know the guy,i'm sitting here wondering why would somebody just shoot this man at a club???? am i missing something? this is why i really think the armed forces need to patrol the streets of south central,these killings happen evry week. somebody young gets blowed away for no reason and the black folks don't say a word......Lord Jesus help us!

Man This IZ Crazy "B" That ur dead and gone so young and undeserving to die of a violent death as such.we been cool for many years I will miss steppn in the club c n your big smile gettn handed a drink!and your hospitality u showed a brother A few weeks ago at KEL'S B DAY get 2 gether! Let your Life And death touch all! i will keep the memories alive and have a drink for you kuzz we all know you was the life of the party!!!u died do n what u n joyed have n a good ol' time! c u later Bro.

I just wanna say how terribly saddened i was to hear this tragic news about Brian. He was a good guy and didnt deserve to die so early and especially not like this. My warmest condolences to his family and those who TRULY loved him...my heart goes out to you.....MAY GOD BE WITH US ALL.

I didn't know this young man, but reading these comments give me a sense of who he was. Brian was loved by so many and I pray that his family is comforted by that. I'm sure that the person who killed him will be caught, because God will reveal him/her one way or another. May God Bless all of his friends and family.

B I'm going to miss you so much! Thank you for all those yummy dinners you cooked me when I started my new job last year. You helped me bake my first cake for my sisters B Day... She loved her B Day cake... I can still taste the brussel sprouts you cooked us. When the Lodge closed down we were both sad ;(

I miss you. We went through good and not so good times together. You will be missed

I will always remember the lessons you taught me. You certainly helped thicken my skin.. Love you B!

PS - Are you the cousin? LOLOLOLOLOL

Brian I'm hurting to the maxx it feels like I got hit by a bus...that how much pain I am goin thru with u being gone..I remember I could finish your sentences that's how much I knew you...I even had you amazed @ times ! By how much attention I payed to you and started to figure you out!...I use to tell u can't out fox the fox!! Lol and we would laugh so hard because I was so much younger then you... R when we sit on Tha phone and talk for hours while I was @ work...and you would eat and 30 minutes later say I'm hungry and I would say u just ate I know u not hungry...I know I don't know y I said that....I would tell u it's cuz u like to hear yourself talk and u would really crack up from laughing because I called you out...I remember when we where out clubbing and me n u where @ mikes spot n our own corner talkin and we where talkin about how much we love eachother and i told u I love you like beyonce love Jay and u said don't love me that much she love him to muchh and cuz if something happened to him she would go crazy.... Well B I'm clearly goin crazy and i never stop lovin you thru it all...the good the bad the ugly....u where still number one to me.... I'm just happy that we actually got a chance to clear everything up b4 the unexpected happen to you..and I was able to hear u snore and talk in your sleep like you normally did after a night out...I told you soo many times b4 your my first love so u not getting away from me so easy and I never let you go in life like like when times I would try and go you would ask me so where you think you running to and u would let me know givin up wasn't an option in nothing that u wanted r cared about r cherished that meant somthing to you..I always admired that about you no matter how bad a person could be you always seen the little bit of good that nobody else did....and always wanted to help until u felt that's as far as I could take them and still help them even after u told yourself u was done because u where doin all the work and the person u helped wasn't even trying..I just have soo many memories good and bad...happy and sad...I can honestly say I will never love another man like I love you.... You where truefully 1 n a million and far from the average Joe! I learned so much from you..u tought me selfworth and how I should be treated and except nothing but the best are don't except it!!! next dude that comes into my life is going to have some very big 9 1/2 shoes to feel.. Thank you for being in my life and letting me have a part in yours!! I love You BkD forever.......ps. Do all the resting u can b4 our father calls me up because u know imma keep you awake and make you talk to me like I did b4 when you trying to sleep.... I start askin questions a demand an answer just like the good old times lmao... The classic memories that we shared will never fade.... I love u Brian even more everyday

Words cannot describe the way I feel. The years of friendship and love will never be replaced nor forgotten. We brought each other through some very hard times and some very good times. You had a special place in my heart that will always remain. Your were and still are the LOVE OF MY LIFE.

Brian, Although I know you wont be able to read this. Some how I pray my words will reach you. But I'm at a loss for words..MY 1st real love. The memories I will keep locked in my heart. I'm hurt that I was robbed at my chance to say good bye and one last chance to say I love you. I still smile when we would go out and if you didnt like my outfit, we would take a detour to the mall. Even if we were just going to play pool.
My eyes fill with tears as I continue to type. So I will just say good bye Brian and I love you. Always will.

Brian, I can't believe that today I said my final goodbye to you. This all seems so unreal! Someone said today you had a way of making a person feel that they were your only friend. I couldn't agree more. Today, after seeing so many of your friends, I marveled at your ability to be there for us all. Brian, you were the big brother I never had you were a true friend. I will truly miss you. I'm thankful for the time I shared with you. I love you.
Samantha

brian im at a lost for words! just the thought of you not calling to get the h-town scoop is mind blowing.i've known you for over 12 yrs, and just like brothers and sister do,we had our fallouts.it was always refreshing to know that when i was mad you never stopped asking about me or tryin to reach out to me.i love you and will miss our fun times together.coming to l.a. will not be the same.you,dion,and i will tear up some food together lol!im so glad i got the chance to see you and hug you. it is a memory i'll never forget cause thats the last time i saw you,and you were smiling.. i miss you already! luv your lil sis
velle...

Brian
Im in aw I can't believe it's really over I won't hear your voice anymore you were my rock and you knew how much I Love You. That was something that was known off the top I hate that the last time I saw you was the last time I would see you ever again but it was great I flew in we went shopping went out to eat talk and laughed our behinds off man it was great as we parted you hugged me and kissed my cheek and said I Love You Always and I kissed you back and said I Love You More you dropped me back off at my room and said tell my son to call me I said ok and got out of the car I'm glad that memorry was beautiful cause coming to your funeral would have done to much to me seeing you that way So with that being said I'm done not with you just with this your soul I will forever pray for and the one who took your life God bless him cause God is gonna make him suffer you do not take life out of sight not off my mind forever your Love. Kimberly,Armani,and Symone ;^D

The days seem surreal without u here man...u will never b forgotton Brian....but u will missed!!I will always hold u dear to me and reflect in all our memories together the good n bad because @ the end it only made us stronger and bought us closer so with that said REST IN PEACE.... I love you!

I at a all time low and lost for words you will never b forgotten.....but u will be truelly missed Brian....i love you and our times spent having fun and talking..rip i love you Brian DeLoach!!!

My Uncle Brian he’s been in my life since I was a little girl he wasn’t my blood uncle but he was close enough the best thing I remember about him was when he bought me my first bike when I was younger I was the happiest kid in L.A. I rode that bike until I was to big not to ride it anymore. Even thou he wasn’t around like he should of been as I got older I still loved him no matter what and he still was my uncle no matter what I am going to miss him so much and I wish he was here to see my graduate but I know he’s watching up there I love you and I miss you uncle Brian rest in peace

Wow.....This is so hard but I know you would want me to keep my head up,I'll never forget us in Galveston on that cold evening and what we said to each other will stay in my heart forever. Thanks for checking in on me and always encouraging me....I feel a void now but I know that God knows best, Love and Miss you for the rest of my life...Your lil Big Mouth Choochie

i will miss u and i love you

Very sad and although I didn't know him much, its a tragic loss for our community.

GOD gives us angels on Earth 2 touch people's lives. U were one of HIS angels, and now you have returned 2 heaven. Sooo sad 2 hear about the careless cause of your death. U always enjoyed a nite out with friends, so apparently you were doing what you loved...when life was taken from u. U had a good spirit & a beautiful ora, so I think GOD will reveal your killer. HOUSTON & everyone u touched MISSES U!!

I MISS YOU!!!!! AND i LOVE you!!!

I miss you! I wish I could speak to you right now I need to speak to you just for a moment. I Love You! Wow!;^( so crazy.

I love my baby so
But he's not here no more
Hard for me to understand
So I wrote him this song
Couldn't look him in his eyes
Knew I couldn't change his mind
So I wrote this melody
And I'm singing sweet goodbye

I love you so
I need you so
It's hard to imagine
My life here without you
I love you so
I need you so
It's hard to imagine
My life here without you
Without you
Without you

I love you Brian aka my super star and now my guardian angel!

Always thinking about you Can't believe I not talking to u or seeing u here Love You 2 Much 2 Let You Go

You will be sorely missed. Words can not describe the pain I feel. I know your in a better place and I will see you again one day

I dont know what to say about this. That phone call plays in my head all the time. Someone that didnt know this GRATE person just came and did something so BAD and us his friends have to live with. I recall talkin to De Loach on Easter, and told him that ill c him when i come to town. My Hart is broken over this.Ill c u soon De Loach !!

i miss you more and more everyday...i cant explain the lonely and emptyness feeling i have knowing i cant pop up at ur house are vise versa are talking to you all the time

It's amazing how you find out things when you cut yourself off from the rest of the world. I got a phone call today 07/01/10. Was told about Brian and all these memories starting pouring in. I met Brian in Houston back in 1996. I am a child of the gutter born into poverty. Brian would come scoup a nigga from my raggedy apartments. Showing me a whole nother world outside the ghetto. He expose me to a lot of growth. I'm thankful for that experience. And yes my man's was very down to earth. Even after he watched me grow up from a boy to a man. I can't help but smile when he saw me 10 years later in NEW YORK and said "you not a little boy anymore, look at you..you a man now" I built my swag around your's B. Man how time flies.. May your soul rest in peace bro. I will always remember the Summer of "96" in Houston. Watching Oprah, eating out, getting fat, and buying up gear. Damn man... you will be missed!!

RSD--5601 ROYAL PALMS HTOWN TX

I will miss you bro

Does anyone know what high school this Brian went to?

The other day i was driving down the highway and started to pick up the phone i was having a moment and it dawned on me i would just be calling you for nothing you are missed and it just seem like all kind of stuff has been happening since your not here Symones in beauty school and Armani is going to the tenth grade and he will be on the varsity football team this year whats crazy is your watching us now instead of calling us this is wicked man oh man dude i miss you you never know how much you can really love and miss somebody til there really not there this is crazy for me i just want you to call and say what my boy doing and tell him i love him and also for you to figure out when i will be in LA what is crazy i have so many flash backs i either cry or just bust out laughing like about that night in the rover we were so silly but that was a funny moment say bay we wish we had you here and Love You so much

He went to crenshaw high

Wow I can't believe this is how I found you..... I have been looking for you for years. I haven't seen you since you left Grambling, La in 1993. It hurts my heart to find you like this (I googled your name). After reading what everyone had to say about I see you got better at what you did. I remember when you use to take me to malls and buy me outfits and other things, all I had to do was come pick you up. What's really crazy is I was looking for you in California all those years and you were only 4 hours away from me in Houston (I was in Arlington, Tx). I was reading what you wrote in my yearbook (Crenshaw c/o 89) "To the beggest girl in the world, get you a job, make you own money, don't be cheap, and stop using people". Well I got a job, aint nothing cheap about me, but I still beg and use people sometime:)! I see you were a Prize amoung the living. I know you are ok (you're with GOD and your Mother) but its hurts because I didnt get a chance to see you.

Brian your death leaves a heartache no one can heal, our love leaves a memory no one can steal.

I will forever miss you, B.

Hey babe I was sitting here thinking that I'm still stuck in the same place missing you not giving up on you I'm still holding on Armani and I was riding last night and he said Ma turn down the radio who song is this and it sparked up something I thought I had finally excepted I'm still not ready to let you go you will for ever be in my heart soul mind and in the breathe I breath you are so missed and I want to talk to you when God gave me you he gave me a multitude of things you are missed and I Love You.

it will b 8months tomorrow and i still feel tha same way i felt that night. broken..i have come with the terms that u are not coming back.. and i know how u where so strong and such a fighter and i try and be that way for u and i kno thats what u tought me.. and for tha sake of my sanity..but i have yet to heal and so much reminds me of you especially tha hoilday season and ur birthday comming up..i cant stop thinking about tha love we shared and how much i love you..and i always will..

-iSLAND eyeS.

Wow. I am absolutely done and devastated at what I'm reading. I haven't spoken to Brian since 2009, and something told me to google him and I was not expecting to find THIS! My love for him will be everlasting, and the memories I have with him will remain priceless. I still have your tshirt, wish it still smelled like you now more than ever. :(